I lost my way, taking a note from my own self care playbook

Have you ever been super focused?

The kind of focus that gets shit done and the entire world seems to bow at your feet?

Going into May I had that focus.  The end of school for my kiddos was near, everything with my business was coming together, I was starting a new fitness program, I WAS HAPPY!!

Then seasonal allergies hit Indiana.  Now I know there are people who are way sicker but let me tell you my allergies are no joke.  I've discussed before on previous posts my history with how sick I get.  I can't breathe, move, basically function.  After 2 weeks I went to the clinic, I had enough and knew it was only going to get worse.  I was given antibiotics and sent on my way.  In the meantime I couldn't work, I cancelled classes and was recycling videos for YouTube.  The meds were working and I was getting better!  Hooray!

Then my grandma died.  To say her loss was unexpected is an understatement.  If the loss of any 92 year old can be.  She was a piece of my mom that I held so desperately on to.  I so selfishly wanted another 40 years with her. Sitting here now thinking about it I can't even say I feel it's real.

I'm so grateful for this outlet.  If anything it gave me a chance to share her and she actually got a chance to hear those words.
Taking my own self care tips was so difficult!
But here I am at almost physically 100%!!  I taught my first class in forever yesterday and it felt amazing!  YouTube will have new content next week!
Much love and healthy vibes for all of you,
Rachael